Good Morning Folks, Its wednesday and I am off the next 5 days. Woo Hoo!!!!! I am not yet awake even though its with after 7 in the morning. I am watching Ellen, that old TV show from the 90s. ITs rather stupid and yet sometimes its a little informative for me in a way. And yes I am just rambling. LOL
Well, I spent a few hours on the phone with “Mr. Sam Elliot” last night which is why I am not awake yet. Midnight comes kinda fast sometimes ya know. Then the sun decided to grace through the bathroom window on time as usual. The sun is really the only constant in my life, well, besides being alone. LMAO/. I am not sure where this chitter chatter is going to take me. He does live in another state. Long distance relationships usually do not work to well. I am not sure about this one either. We do have intellectual conversations, and still he seems to be in his own world of needing sex. I need it to but just am not in any hurry to have it. I do have other things on my mind anyways. I am saying some of this as he made a mistake last night. He referred to my old male self in something we got to talking about. Made mention of the fact “I am not a woman”. My silence was deafening and he realized then that he made a mistake. Sticking his foot in his mouth as he said. So this morning my giddiness of him is not really there like it was yesterday. I am not sure if I should give a second chance on this, or just walk away so to speak. I just am not that desperate to have a relationship. I also think he is trying to talk himself out of attempting to have a relationship. Which is fine with me, like I said I do not need one. Even though he did say something in the lines that I dont need to be alone all my life, I needed companionship. I had to agree, but do I need it in the manner of referring back to my old person whom I left behind? Hell the Fuck NO!!!!
I got some stuff to get done today. I have to go get the remainder my paycheck into the bank. I am hoping that the paycheck this week isnt all screwed up too. So with that, I am on my way to get my shower and get started on my day. Have a great day everyone……